First anniversary in heaven

Today is your first anniversary in heaven. You must be celebrating with the angels a new life of freedom. You must be flying like a bird picking up our random prayers with a smile. 

I have a feeling you were longing for the day the angels welcomed you to your new home because you barely visit our dreams. It’s as if you’re busy catching up with mom on the last nine years you spent in separate worlds!

I remember two days before you went away you looked at me and in total silence we had a long conversation. We said our goodbyes and you told me that you were going to be ok.

Deep inside I was happy to let you go in peace, but you have no idea how much I miss your smile, your face, your love, your presence, everything about you.  I miss holding you, and taking care of you. I miss arguing with you over when you can have your second cup of coffee! I miss your voice reciting the same prayer over and over and over again. I miss the sight of you siting on that sofa carefully sipping that second cup of nescafe with joy! I miss being your daughter who even during the hardest days when you could barely tell what was going on around you, still felt so safe and protected.  I just simply miss home, your home.